fact : me and my step dad dont get along
reason : we just dont. and we cant!
why : it is complicated to describe why. all i know is everytime we're in the same room together and having a simple conversation we would end up arguing with each other
fiercely. then we would start shouting at each other (correction : its actually just me who shouts) and say stuff that are offensive to each other. eventually my mum would be the referee who would pacify both me and my step dad from killing each other.
one of the example of our simple conversation goes like this :
step dad (SD) : ''have you fed the cats?''
me : *appears to be tired because just got back from work* ''in a minute.''
SD : *goes to the kitchen where the cats have been waiting and then talks to the cat*
yes darling i know you're hungry. too bad becos your sister is too fuckin lazy to
fuckin feed you''
me : *pissed* why dont you ask my sister to do it? shes been staying in her bedroom
playing computer all day and ive been working, and i have to hoover the
the house aswell today''
SD : *being sarcastic* ''oh yeah (!) you're the only one who works in this house, you
fuckin pay the bill and everything (!!) and everybody else doesnt work at all.''
see what i mean?
i cant tell you the rest of the story tho. but thats pretty much how it went.
but imagine if you have to deal with this kinda crap everyday ; arguing over some stupid little thing, and making it like its a big deal.
why do some people always make a fuss out of little, simple, insignificant things? why cant they just drop it?
its not the end of the world if i dont feed the cat straight away is it? i did say ''in a minute'' didnt i? which means that I WILL DO IT!
what's with the hassle? why do some people seem to be enjoying it so much?
sick!
3 comments:
First of all, you are not alone. Well, i have a dad (sure!) i mean, err... What do you say it? Biological dad? Oh, what ever! The point is. We both never and will never be on the same way. I mean, we are on the same blood line but whats the fucking function of the blood line if you feel like trash when you talking to him?
*dinni
well at least his your dad. he is biologically programmed to love you, he may acts a bit harsh now and then but im sure he does that to protect you from doing the wrong thing. because you are his daughter. and nothing could ever change that.
its very much different if you have a step dad. yes a step dad could also love you but not in the same way as your biological dad would love you.
because a thought like ''this kid isnt mine and i dont want her in my life'' could occur in step dad's mind once and while. and when that thought occours,.. he would say things that makes you feel like you are unwanted. and that hurts.
Well, i know the sayings about human. Theyre will never ever feel enough. Some said theyre have anything that other wants, but human, once again will never get enough of what they already have. I would rather live my life alone than spending my life in very unappreciate and feel down every day. I mean, he always looking down at my bad and talk as i dont understand anything, like im the idiot who cannot even using my both hands. That sucks.
this may hear weird but i want to go away and find new family, and start a new life. If that possible :|
rich or not i dont care. Im tired being what i am now.
But unfortunately, we cannot choose which family we would live with. Its a destiny.
God is not just pick you up and set you like a barbie. He think. He making a life feels more 'life' with some problems. Hes joking with us.
I dont know if he feels any fun by playing my life.
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